Why Structure is Important. Very Important. For Me.

For the last twenty years, I have been living my life on a semester based year.  That's a long time.

Now I that I have graduated, I no longer live my life based on semesters.  It's weird.  But I have been trying to get into a rhythm, a routine to keep me from wasting time while I look for a job.

I get up sometime between 8 and 9 am, if I sleep til 10, the rest of the day just disappears and I don't get anything done.  I eat breakfast and on Monday/Wednesday/Friday I wait an hour or so to digest and then I go to the gym to workout, shower, eat lunch and blog.  And after I eat lunch, I get really sleepy.  I have been trying to keep from succumbing every day, but today it's extra difficult.

Tuesdays and Thursdays are difficult, because yoga is at 7:30p.  I have no real structure on those days.
Those two days, and M/W/F afternoons are really where the time suck happens, because I don't have anything planned.  I try and keep busy with projects around the house. Like, making a new papasan chair cushion or a case for my kindle, unpacking things and getting ready for Courtney's Bridal Shower and Bachelorette Party.  But eventually, you just plain run out of stuff to do.

I need to find a job.  I am running out of things to do around here, and it's beginning to drive me mad.

I am trying to not get to the point of boredom, but I feel it's not far off.

Structure, for me is so important.  And if I had kids I would be able to have time to help them learn new things, and do all kinds of stuff, but that ship will not come into the harbor for several years.  With structure, deadlines and projects, I feel productive.  And it doesn't hurt to get paid for those things.

In the mean time I will spend my time working out, blogging, watching movies and reading lots of books!

And job hunting.

LOL, no srsly!

LOL.

How many times per day do you see that acronym? Think about that for a minute. 10, 15, 50?

LOL no longer means laugh out loud. You may think it does, but it doesn't. Nope. You may think, well, what does it mean? Lots of love? No. Not that either.

LOL now means: "awkward pause, I have nothing else to say." It goes at the end of something that could not even come close to being funny. It's not a response to something funny anymore either, it is a lame way to fill internet "silences".

What is it that makes all humans want to fill silences, internet or otherwise? Sometimes, quiet is nice. Sitting at the kitchen table with nothing other than a cup of tea (or cider, now that fall has decided to show its cold, rainy face) and your own thoughts. It's calming and centering. Life is so hectic, especially during the school year, it's nice to take a break and not do anything but sit there and enjoy the silence. You don't even have to think about anything - just sit there!

Don't sleep and try and say you get the same results. You don't. The peace from a restful sleep is definitely not the same. Sure, you are rested, but are you centered? Maybe if you're the Dalai Lama, but he gets up at 4 am to meditate anyway.

When is the last time you took a 'time-out' and took care of yourself? Let the stress go and enjoy the quiet? I know that for a lot of college students, college is time to study hard and party harder. But what do those things get you? The Freshman Fifteen, hungover and flunking. Not that taking a second to breathe is going to get you an A, but if your brain isn't going top speed 18 hours a day, you might find that you have room for that crazy stuff your professors drone on about.

And if you stop using LOL, you'll stop sounding like a valley girl.

LOL, like totally! *head tilt*