Friday, September 9, 2011

Conflicting Feelings and Remembrances

6 years ago on Saturday Adam and I had our first date that started us down the road to wedded bliss.  This day is a happy one for us, but as we celebrate fond memories we remember with the rest of the country the terrible tragedy that occurred while we were both still in high school.

I was 14 and a freshman in high school on September 11, 2001.  I had first block Health Class and my teacher was just as much in the dark as the rest of us.  My next block class was Biology I and I was supposed to have a test that day.

But as some friends and I walked in joking around to see my biology teacher, Mr. Miller, sitting on his stool in front of the TV which was highly unusual.  We all dropped our books on our desks and walked up to see what was going on.  Mr. Miller told us what had happened and we sat in shock and aw as the second plane hit and then news rolled in about the Pentagon and United 93 crashed in Pennsylvania.

I am a normally very teary person, but I didn't manufacture tears, I was in too much shock.

We watched as people chose to jump, rather than burn or die from smoke inhalation.  The Towers fell, and heroes died trying to save as many of the victims in the Towers as they could.

The rest of the day passed by subdued and still quickly.  We still went out on the marching band field and I can't even remember what we did in Algebra that day, if we did anything.  I went home and turned on CNN.  The whole day is one I won't ever forget, as long as I live.

The country came together and I hope that as we remember 9/11/01 ten years later, that politics stay out of it.  I hope we can come together as a country again to remember those who perished in this terrible tragedy and continue to move forward as a country.

Keep yourselves safe, and hug your loved ones.

I leave you with a video from September 20, 2011.  The opening monologue of Jon Stewart's from the Daily Show, the first one after 9/11.  His raw emotions speak to me, and I think it is one of the most honest moments in the media done by a performer who makes his living on parody news and comedy.  Words really can't describe how much this video means to me.


Here is the transcript if you don't want to watch.

JON STEWART'S OPENING MONOLOGUE
DATE: September 20, 2001

Good evening and welcome to "The Daily Show." We are back. This is our first show since the tragedy in New York City. There is no other way really to start this show than to ask you at home the question that we've asked the audience here tonight and that we’ve asked everybody that we know here in New York since September 11th, and that is, "Are you okay?" We pray that you are and that your family is. I’m sorry to do this to you. It’s another entertainment show beginning with an overwrought speech of a shaken host. TV is nothing, if not redundant. So, I apologize for that. It’s something that unfortunately, we do for ourselves so that we can drain whatever abscess is in our hearts and move onto the business of making you laugh, which we really haven’t been able to do very effectively lately. Everyone’s checked in already, I know we’re late. I’m sure we’re getting in right under the wire before the cast of "Survivor" offers their insight into what to do in these situations.

They said to get back to work. There were no jobs available for a man in the fetal position under his desk crying, which I would have gladly taken. So I came back here. Tonight’s show is obviously not a regular show. We looked through the vaults, we found some clips that we thought might make you smile, which is really what’s necessary, I think, right about now. A lot of folks have asked me, "What are you going to do when you get back? What are you going to say?" I mean, what a terrible thing to have to do. I don’t see it as a burden at all. I see it as a privilege. I see it as a privilege and everyone here does see it that way. The show in general, we feel like is a privilege. Just even the idea that we can sit in the back of the country and make wise cracks, which is really what we do. We sit in the back and we throw spitballs, but never forgetting the fact that is a luxury in this country that allows us to do that. This is a country that allows for open satire, and I know that sounds basic and it sounds as though it goes without saying - but that’s really what this whole situation is about. It’s the difference between closed and open. It’s the difference between free and burden and we don’t take that for granted here by any stretch of the imagination and our show has changed. I don’t doubt that. What it’s become, I don’t know. "Subliminal" is not a punch line anymore. One day it will become that again, and Lord willing, it will become that again because that means we have ridden out the storm.

But the main reason that I wanted to speak tonight is not to tell you what the show is going to be. Not to tell you about all the incredibly brave people that are here in New York and in Washington and around the country. But we’ve had an enduring pain here - an endurable pain. I wanted to tell you why I grieve, but why I don’t despair…I’m sorry. Luckily we can edit this. One of my first memories is of Martin Luther King being shot. I was five and if you wonder if this feeling will pass…When I was five, he was shot. Here’s what I remember about it. I was in a school in Trenton. They shut the lights off and we got to sit under our desks and we thought that was really cool and they gave us cottage cheese, which was a cold lunch because there was rioting, but we didn’t know that. We just thought that “My god. We get to sit under our desks and eat cottage cheese.” That’s what I remember about it. That was a tremendous test of this country’s fabric and this country’s had many tests before that and after that.

The reason I don’t despair is because this attack happened. It’s not a dream. But the aftermath of it, the recovery is a dream realized. And that is Martin Luther King's dream. Whatever barriers we've put up are gone even if it's momentary. We're judging people by not the color of their skin but the content of their character. You know, all this talk about "These guys are criminal masterminds. They’ve gotten together and their extraordinary guile…and their wit and their skill." It's a lie. Any fool can blow something up. Any fool can destroy. But to see these guys, these firefighters, these policemen and people from all over the country, literally, with buckets rebuilding. That's extraordinary. That's why we've already won. It's light. It's democracy. We've already won. They can't shut that down. They live in chaos and chaos…it can't sustain itself. It never could. It's too easy and it's too unsatisfying.

The view from my apartment was the World Trade Center and now it's gone. They attacked it. This symbol of American ingenuity and strength and labor and imagination and commerce and it is gone. But you know what the view is now? The Statue of Liberty. The view from the south of Manhattan is now the Statue of Liberty. You can't beat that.

So we're going to take a break and I'm going to stop slobbering on myself and on the desk. We’re going to get back to this. It's gonna be fun and funny and it's going to be the same as it was and I thank you. We'll be right back. 

Thursday, September 8, 2011

100 Miles and Pain In The Neck!

We did it!

After two months of training and riding and nutrition and hydration and pain and flat tires plus 8 hours and another flat, Adam and I rode a century on Sunday.  100 miles on a bike!  My first, and Adam's second.

Whew.

It was so much work, but so very much worth it.


I really need to re-paint my nails....

It took us 8 hours, and I earned 43 activity points.

43!

Here is where I would post a picture of Adam and I after we finished, but my phone died and Adam's phone erases pictures.  Fortunately, he tweeted the picture of my odometer so I could get this from the internets.

The first 25 miles were pretty good.  It was a beautiful day for a ride.  Sunny, white puffy clouds and a slight breeze that was a cross wind while we road the Rails to Trails from Reed City to Evart and into Clare County.  We stopped and ate a Clif Bar, then turned around to do the next 25 miles.  The wind changed direction at this point and was giving us a stiff head wind that made me very frustrated.  I hate  head winds.  They make things so much harder than they need to be!  We hit 50 miles when we arrived back at my parents' house for lunch.

We were there for about an hour, re-fueling, recovering and re-hydrating.  Then we set off for Big Rapids to avoid the head wind and get up to at least 75 miles before heading back to Reed City.  We rode on the White Pine Trail to Big Rapids until it ended, turned around and then just tooled around Big Rapids a little until we returned to the White Pine Trail.  We did circles on the North End Park loop (that hill going back up to the WPT is wicked!  It's almost straight up!)

We headed back to Reed City with 77 miles on our odometers.  Stopping at 2 Mile Road, we were 13.25 miles from the end.  Adam crossed 2 Mile first, and I followed.  I heard/felt a whump and then a flump flump flump flump.

I had another freaking flat.

This was like the FIFTH flat that I have had in three weeks.  And I had had enough.

I was tired, in pain and pissed beyond belief.

I may or may not have screamed at the top of my lungs a mixture of curse words and the fact that I had another flat up to Adam.

Adam couldn't believe it either and returned to me.  We started to change the flat and I called my parents to ask them to bring our bike pump so we wouldn't have to waste a CO2 tube.  My baby brother, Zack, came out in our car to bring us our pump.  He saved us.  While we were waiting for him, Adam broke one of my tire levers.  It probably broke from over use over the last few weeks.

With the flat fixed, Adam and I thanked Zack for his road side assistance (Zack thought it was cool because he got to drive "the team car" and save our butts) and hopped back on the bikes.

We rode the final three miles into Reed City, rode the spike up towards Cadillac to collect another mile or so then we set out to ride approximately a 0.8 mile loop in a criterium setting to do the final nine miles.

As we rode the criterium, darker and darker clouds rolled in.  It got to the point that even though we were working hard, we were getting chilly.  I even was wishing I had my thermal jersey and I have much more, erm, insulation than Adam does.  It spit on us a bit, but didn't truly start raining until we pulled into the driveway after our 100 miles were completed.

During our criterium, we passed a number of kids a number of times and they cheered us on every time we passed, it was so cute!

Then, as our odometers turned over 100 miles, we were holding hands and smiling like fools.  We had trained for this, we had worked  for this.  We had become masters of our own pain to ride 100 miles in a day.

We were tired.

We were cold.

We were hungry.

We were so freaking happy.

We had done it, and as the giddiness washed over us, the pain disappeared.  At least for the moment, my neck killed for the next three days!  Still hurts a bit actually...

Anyway!

After we rolled over 100 miles, I jokingly said, "Ok, mountain biking is next."

I only wonder how much I was joking....


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Thursday, September 1, 2011

The Day of Truth - What Did You Eat Today? Day 7

And so the week comes to a close and today was the day of truth.  Did my super-OCD tracking do the trick?  Did I eat too many carbs?

I lost 3 lbs when I weighed in this morning.  THREE WHOLE POUNDS! YES!  So to answer my questions, yes, super-OCD tracking worked.  And no, it appears that if I don't eat the extra weekly points, that I can eat as many carbs as I did this week and still lose.  Of course, I still made sure to exercise and get the Good Health Guidelines checked off (except the oils, I just can't seem to get those oils in. And I can't seem to mix them with anything that hides the taste of the oil enough that I don't want to hurl.)

GAH! I am so exited! As it stands, if I lose 2.6 lbs this week, I will have lost 10 pounds.  Of course, that just motivates me even more! In part because of this success, and in part of my OCD crazy, I have set two new goals for my weight-loss progress.  And they are thus:

1. Be at goal by my birthday (29 May 2012)

To do that I have to lose 61.2 lbs.  Which leads to my next goal:

2. Losing 30.7 lbs by 1 January 2012.

This seems to be a good mile marker to mark my progress by.  I have 38 weeks to accomplish this goal because my birthday is on a Tuesday, two days before the end of week 39, I can't count week 39, but all days leading up to my birthday count.  It would mean that I have to lose about 1.6 lbs per week.  I think this is one of the first times I have set an actual, realizable goal for my weight loss. Wow.  Look at me, I'm all grown up and realistic!

Another thing that I have realized is that by posting my daily tracker here, I feel much more accountable to stay on plan than ever.  Today I was doing some baking for this weekend, and before I would eat something, I would think, "Do I want to have to put that out in cyberspace?"  It is strangely liberating to have that extra accountability.  I'm going to put some thinking in to how I'm going to continue to do that and incorporate it into the blog as well.  If I could just figure out how to make the other pages have actual posts in them, I would totally do that and just have a separate page for my daily intake.

Hmmm....

Well, anyway, here's what I ate yesterday, sorry it's so late!

Morning
3/4 cup Post Honey Bunches of Oats - 3 P+
(I got yogurt after my WW meeting, so I can have Berry-Cereal Parfaits again!)

Midday
1 Hard Roll - 4 P+
1 1/4 servings Spoke Dip - 4 P+
1 bag WW Popped Cinnamon Swirl Crisps - 2 P+
1 WW Candies - 1 P+

Evening
2 servings Onion Topped Potato Casserole - 8 P+
1/2 cup Chocolate Milk - 2 P+
1/2 cup Regular Ice Cream - 2 P+

Anytime
2 cups Carrots - 0 P+
2 cups Grapes - 0 P+
1 oz Plantars' Honey Roasted Peanuts - 4 P+
1 WW Candy - 1 P+

How about you?  How was your day? Your week?