I have no children yet. But from the post "things I hope to do in my life," you know I want them. And from that, I hope I never, ever have to bury a child.
I have been fortunate enough to have little loss in my life thus far. I remember one great-grandparent and her loss, my great Aunt Mary, Touchdown and Benz. I still have all four of my grandparents, my parents and siblings. And now I have this whole extra extended family I married into and care about.
Loss is an inevitable part of life, and unfortunately, when you care about a lot of people you will lose some of them. And it sucks. But I pray and hope and beg and ask and beseech and any other words that you can think of, that I never have to experience the terrible loss of a child, in anyway.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Jack of All Trades and the Master of None
I mentioned in a post a few days ago that I often feel I am a jack of all trades and the master of none. I have many talents and I love them all. But at the same time I am struggling with what direction I want my life to go in. I love so many things, how do I pick just one to do? I'm a very one track mind person when it comes to things like that, almost to the occlusion of everything else. I have phases that repeat on a cycle.
I want to bake cakes for a living.
No, I want to work in community theatre for a living.
No, I want to be an administrative assistant for a living.
No, I want to act.
No, I want to sing.
No, I want to do techie things.
No, I want to teach. (English and History)
It's endless!! The one thing that is always there under everything is my love for ASL and the Deaf community, my husband and my desire to be a mom. So you would think I could be a freelance interpreter and a housewife. But no, I don't want to lose all the things I'm interested in. I want to learn everything I can about every one of those things and I want to learn about all kinds of other things. I just feel that I know so many things and I want to be so many things that I feel like I'm still a kid who has seventy answers to "What do you want to be when you grow up?"
Another option would be to do them all in a circular basis, but I want stability. And I want flexibility. I am distracted so easily!
Oh, look! Something shiny!
I want to bake cakes for a living.
No, I want to work in community theatre for a living.
No, I want to be an administrative assistant for a living.
No, I want to act.
No, I want to sing.
No, I want to do techie things.
No, I want to teach. (English and History)
It's endless!! The one thing that is always there under everything is my love for ASL and the Deaf community, my husband and my desire to be a mom. So you would think I could be a freelance interpreter and a housewife. But no, I don't want to lose all the things I'm interested in. I want to learn everything I can about every one of those things and I want to learn about all kinds of other things. I just feel that I know so many things and I want to be so many things that I feel like I'm still a kid who has seventy answers to "What do you want to be when you grow up?"
Another option would be to do them all in a circular basis, but I want stability. And I want flexibility. I am distracted so easily!
Oh, look! Something shiny!
Saturday, October 30, 2010
30 Days of Truth - Day 5: Something You Hope To Do In Your Life
Kids, Theatre, ASL interpreting and Travel.
That is not the order that those things will come in, but those are all things I'd like to do in my life. I also might try and write a book. I'm writing a play script now and that's rough going - but I think that's harder than writing a book. Unless you're adapting a book to a script, that might be easier - I don't know, I've never tried. But it must be fun to adapt a book, it's done all the time for musicals, other straight plays (Three Musketeers, The Count of Monte Cristo) and movies (Harry Potter anyone?)
What is with me? I cannot write without having at least one tangent that is mostly unrelated to what I set out to write!
Anyway, where was I? Oh, right, babies. Adam and I want kids. We are not going to have them now, no way! We aren't ready and we wouldn't be able to support them financially. Just our luck, with our first pregnancy we'd get twins. We'd like to have a boy and a girl, but we won't keep having kids if we don't get at least one of each, we'll adopt whatever gender we don't have.
Theatre is fun, I love it, I enjoy it and I have a passion for it. I will continue to be involved in it as long as I am breathing.
Right now, I am sure of one thing in my future (besides Adam). I will be pursuing ASL interpreting licensure. I love to communicate in sign and if it turns out one or more of my children are Deaf, fine. We are prepared.
Travel. This is one of the things that is making us hold back on babies for awhile. We both want to travel the world and that gets A LOT harder when you have children. And more expensive. And we'd rather just travel ourselves first. It is startling to think that at this time 23 years ago, my Mom was pregnant with me and was roughly the same age I am now. Yikes.
There are so many other little things I'd like to do in my life. Maybe I should start a Bucket List....
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That's it for today peeps, I hope you enjoyed the blogging blitz. Have a safe and Happy Halloween and I'll see you on Monday!
That is not the order that those things will come in, but those are all things I'd like to do in my life. I also might try and write a book. I'm writing a play script now and that's rough going - but I think that's harder than writing a book. Unless you're adapting a book to a script, that might be easier - I don't know, I've never tried. But it must be fun to adapt a book, it's done all the time for musicals, other straight plays (Three Musketeers, The Count of Monte Cristo) and movies (Harry Potter anyone?)
What is with me? I cannot write without having at least one tangent that is mostly unrelated to what I set out to write!
Anyway, where was I? Oh, right, babies. Adam and I want kids. We are not going to have them now, no way! We aren't ready and we wouldn't be able to support them financially. Just our luck, with our first pregnancy we'd get twins. We'd like to have a boy and a girl, but we won't keep having kids if we don't get at least one of each, we'll adopt whatever gender we don't have.
Theatre is fun, I love it, I enjoy it and I have a passion for it. I will continue to be involved in it as long as I am breathing.
Right now, I am sure of one thing in my future (besides Adam). I will be pursuing ASL interpreting licensure. I love to communicate in sign and if it turns out one or more of my children are Deaf, fine. We are prepared.
Travel. This is one of the things that is making us hold back on babies for awhile. We both want to travel the world and that gets A LOT harder when you have children. And more expensive. And we'd rather just travel ourselves first. It is startling to think that at this time 23 years ago, my Mom was pregnant with me and was roughly the same age I am now. Yikes.
There are so many other little things I'd like to do in my life. Maybe I should start a Bucket List....
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That's it for today peeps, I hope you enjoyed the blogging blitz. Have a safe and Happy Halloween and I'll see you on Monday!
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