Baring My Soul

Ok, I'm not really baring my soul, but I am very nervous about this post.

So here are the stats:

Weigh In (WI) 4/22/11: 201.2 lbs
WI 4/29/11: 199.5 lbs
Change: -1.7 lbs

And before those of you who know me and see me often say it, no, I don't look like I weight that much, but yes, I do weigh that much.  No, I don't know where I hide it, but I would like to have to "hide" much less pounds.  I figure I keep it on my hips.

Anyway, I said Wednesday I would start dissecting why I struggle so much with this.  So, here goes nothing.

First, what I've noticed is that I am a bored and nervous eater.  I have tried to fix this, but when I am unsuccessful, I try and make sure that there is always some of my favorite fruit or veggies around to gnaw on instead of the sweets that I prefer.  Which is where the fruits come in, natural sugars, yummmm...  I am so glad that watermelon is coming back into season, I love it so much.  It's sweet and if you get a good watermelon, it melts in your mouth.  But, that aside, I am really working on picking healthy options when I snack.

Second, I have a ginormous sweet tooth.  And I bake a lot.  Which, is not compatible with weight loss.  I try to make the sweet things I eat healthier.  I get the Weight Watchers Bakery Treats and Frozen Treats to help, and I also try and bake healthy treats too.  My sweet tooth is a huge obstacle.  Side note: White Chocolate should be illegal, it's far too delicious for my own good.

I've also noticed that if I have something that I really, really like, I am more prone to eat more of it.  I think this goes back to when I was a kid and there was something that was a special treat in the house.  I was competing with two brothers and I had to eat my share now, or I might not get any later and I find myself still in that mindset, probably in part because I married the bottomless pit.  I don't know how to break it, but I have a mantra that I repeat when I am aware of that reaction creeping into my mind.  I CONTROL WHAT GETS PURCHASED.  IF THIS IS GONE TOMORROW, I CAN GO BUY MORE.  BE PATIENT.  I need to have that overrule the ingrained instinct to eat more now, because it is here.  That gets me in trouble.

I also said that I would update on my exercise this week for you today.

Wednesday

I went for a walk with Adam.  We walked at a quick pace for a half hour, as per a Get Fit by Memorial Day (I am under no illusions this will get me fit by Memorial Day, as they expected you to start three months before Memorial Day) workout routine that Cracked Actor posted on her blog. (I hope you choose to switch to Blogger, loves, it's much more universal!)

Thursday

I went for a walk again, and I was supposed to do a quick full body circuit, but after my walk to Walgreen's, my ears hurt from the wind and cold and then I had to pack to go visit my parents and in-laws and drive to my parents.... so I basically just ran out of time.  And I'm really good at making excuses.

Friday

Today though, I did more than the work out plan said to.  I did 30 minutes on the bike and then the quick body circuit.  Adam and I also took TJ, my parents' dog, for a long walk.  It did nothing for her neurosis, she still is whacko, but I got some more exercise and soaked up some recently rare Michigan sun.

Now, I don't know when or how I hurt my neck, but I think I slept on it funny last night and then screwed it up more during my workout.  Fortunately tomorrow is a day off, as is Sunday before I start week two.  Hopefully those rest days will allow my body to recover from me.  I can deal with overall muscle soreness, but the neck pain really sucks.  Heating pad seems to help, but only for a little bit.

I hope that I have a successful week this week too.  I know I won't fit into that dress by Saturday (OMG, GRADUATION IS IN A WEEK!?) but I can still have a successful week and drop a couple more pounds and hopefully be out of my 190s rut soon.

Goals for this week:
1. Drink 16oz of water before every meal.
2. Remember to take my damn multi-vitamin.
3. Workout every day.
4. Take a yoga class.
5. Pack up half the apartment.
6. Enjoy my last week as an undergraduate student. (Includes going to Max and Emily's on Thursday for Loaded Baked Potato Soup!)

Gotta Love That Feeling....

With the onset of exam week (which I am totally prepared for - I love not freaking out about finals!) I have time once again to finally get back on a regular schedule for P90X!  Everyman is done with rehearsals until the Monday that classes start back up which is good for break, but I'll miss everyone and I hope we all remember the great progress we made the last few weeks.  And, when classes start up again, I will be able to workout at 8a every day, because my classes start so late in the day and I'll have enough free time in the morning to be able to workout, shower and eat!

With everything stopping like this for the end of the semester, it seems to be a parting of the waters - so to speak - for me to finally be rested enough/awake enough/have enough time to be able to finish the P90X cycle I was on before the semester started moving faster than the speed of light.  So, last night I adjusted my P90X tracking sheet dates and popped in Core Synergistics X.  I was pleasantly surprised that after almost a month of not doing the work outs six days a week that I had only lost a little of my progress - I have never been good at push ups anyway.  I think that part of it is that Everyman is physically demanding enough that I was able to kind of maintain my progress.

I worked out hard and I didn't do the bonus round, which may have killed me if I tried it last night.  I also don't do superman/banana (I don't feel that AT ALL) or the Dreya Roll (I physically can't do that yet, but I'm working on it) but this morning when I woke up and moved to go to the bathroom, I knew I had done it right.  I could list all the muscles that are sore when I move, but with my prior knowledge of all the muscles, I would be listing them for days.

In a little side note, Adam and I are celebrating our own Christmas a little early this year, since we will be visiting family on the actual holiday.  So on Sunday (our one year anniversary - holy crap!) we're spending the day together ignoring the world and we'll open our Christmas gifts from each other that day too.  But! We both got to open one early because I couldn't wait for him to open one of the things I got him.  And last night I got to open one and now I have heavier hand weights for my P90X - WOO!  I had 2 lb weights prior and that was NOT heavy enough.  So now I have 5 lb Valeo Hand Weights and I'll talk about those after I use them the first time, I didn't open them until after I had already done my work out.

So, to wrap up a completely random post: it's exam week and I'm ready for it, Everyman is on break until classes start again and the rehearsals are physically demanding, I have time and have started doing P90X again, I have 5 lb weights now, Our one year anniversary is on Sunday and we're having our own Christmas at home before we visit family.

I think that's everything....


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